Once Again ...

Once again it has been left unattended for a fortnight. I guess it would of happened especially because my semester started. Not to say I've put a lot of time into it but just that I procrastinate about study and it trumps this so this gets put further on the backburner.

So I'm posting now, means I've done some study. Cut my full load to just one subject to see if I can survive anymore studying in my life or if it's just futile. Online study just makes it harder. Bit weirded out posting to faceless people in the forums ... people I've never seen. Least the teacher's face is posted on the video. Will update more as I go.

Well I had intended on posting about camp in the traditional long post but don't think that's going to happen. Didn't really take any photos with it so would of looked kind of boring anyways. Least I'll share what I most enjoyed out of it. Glad to say it was the talks. The speaker had 4 talks which were 'The Bible is Personal', 'The Bible is Powerful', 'The Bible is Trustworthy', and 'The Bible is all we have and all we need'. What got me was that this wasn't anything new. Probably something we'd learnt many many a times. Yet these things are often forgotten. It was a great reminder and built our confidence once again in the Word that is the root of our core belief. Something that we've had from the start of this journey. So yeah that was great. Also he called me pikachu while I was on PA which confused everyone until they turned around to see me in my pikachu beanie. As usual wore all my weird stuff. Actually wore a jacket this year to try to be normal. Which is weird because usually I don't. I'm weird. Also shout out to the games, some interesting ideas used, not too complicated, and well implemented which is all I ask for :P. 

I'll leave it at that in this post. Once again I will just put down some possible posts I'll be doing when I get time. Work again is meant to come up ... keep adding to the list of what I'm going to post. Probably cut it down like this camp one but I do have lots of photos if I can find them. Also Pokemon Go stuff ... yes they'll be a post about that but hopefully its surprising and encouraging ... well that's how I visualise it as being. See how I go ... again.

The Trouble with Sleep

As you can see I didn't end up keeping to what I said about blogging. I mean thing is I'm still having problems with sleep so I can attribute it to that I guess. Actually slept okay last night ... so here a post.

So for about a week I've been having terrible sleep, or attempts at sleep, ending up sleeping at random times during the day. What's different from the past? Oh right yeah sleep apnea. Had that for years, probably years before I found out I had it. Many years of Peter's infamous snoring probably was from sleep apnea. Also the days of sleeping during classes and such ... I mention a bit in my MIA post but I might post more about it another time just so I can get this post out.

But no I was trying to use the CPAP machine so it wasn't that. It's more likely because studies are coming up again. I've been deferring it awhile now because of health and family circumstances. Now it come round again and I'm worrying. Years of terrible studying, some due to circumstances and some due to my incompetence, has made me a bit squirmish when it comes of studying. So why don't I just not study? Well I don't have anything worth anything to get a career and I already have a hard time looking for any work I can possibly get so I'll need something more. I don't want to just study and fail again. I want to break that cycle. So what I guess is keeping me up is trying to figure out how to break that cycle. In the past I had a hard time asking for help but I think I'm a bit better at it now. I'm up for any help I can get. 

Now I am a bit better at asking for help now it's more of who do I ask for help from?