Showing posts with label Rant. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Rant. Show all posts
Wednesday, 7 September 2016
Tough times
Life is hard, sigh. Life is hard when you assume too much, sigh. Life is hard when you speak without thinking, sigh. Life is hard when you are arrogant, sigh. Life is hard when you are human, sigh. Enough said. Thanks for listening.
Friday, 2 September 2016
Work without the work
Ok new vlog is up. More annotation nonsense.
A bit longer than I wanted but that's what happens with one take, no edit.
Continue to give me feedback and I'll try my best to get better :D
Sunday, 24 April 2016
Work for what now?
So been on Centrelink for awhile now so this isn't so hard to believe but it's still pretty terrible. What am I talking about? I'm talking about their Work for the Dole initiative. When you are on Newstart, what you get as a new job searcher, for like 6 months they put you on Work for the Dole. They give you work with a company that needs volunteers and what it's for is that you can put that on your resume as experience. Well if your resume was good enough you would have got a job already, or that's what they assume I guess. So it's not a terrible thing.
I've done Work for the Dole before. Nice computer refurbish place. However the problem is during one of the change with the government they removed this initiative while I was working there so I stopped that. That was like 7 or 8 years ago. They only just recently brought it back end of last year. Problem with this is that because they just started it back up there is a lack of connections with companies so a lack of volunteer work. I tried to volunteer for it back when I started back on Newstart but they said they had to reserve those for people who are suppose to be on the initiative before they can let people volunteer for it. Okay so I had to wait till I needed to do it.
So in Jan I was suppose to start Work for the Dole. Problem was once again there was limited places. Fortunately they found me a place in Box Hill basically down my street. Sweet. Worked out the paperwork. Immediately the next day I receive a call telling me that connection has been cut and was in renegotiation so I had to choose the only other place which was in Southbank. Bleh fine. Wasn't very happy. However with the thing that happened with my brother happened at the time they told me I didn't need to come in at the time. Thing is after a week of not attending apparently it is automatically cancelled by the system. This I didn't find out until 3 weeks later ... Fine they scheduled me a meeting so I'll wait for that. However just a week later before the meeting I receive a call checking on how I was doing with Work for the Dole ... Okay I really don't get how their system works. The system cancels my Work for the Dole however my automated scheduled phone checkups stay up ... it's messed up. So tried to work it out. And now apparently there are 0 places for me to work so they put my studies as Work for the Dole activity ... aren't I basically on Austudy which is for students? Then again I'm getting paid more this way, guess I can't complain.
Unfortunately my studies don't go so well so I defer. Of course this means changing my Work for the Dole. They tell me there's a place in Balwyn, sweet. Problem, they expect more hours then someone my age is suppose to do ... then why did you even tell me. Hating. They place me in Collingwood for only 2 weeks because that's when their agreement is for. Okay fine, don't place me anywhere close and make me come in after 2 weeks to do this all over again. So I turn up in Collingwood and guess what? The place is close for the holiday break ... I call up my jobsearch place and find out they weren't informed. Of course. They tell me they will work it out. 2 weeks and they tell me just to come in to work out a new place.
That brings us to this week. Kew, not so bad. I turn up Tuesday. Apparently the Kew place didn't know I was coming in. They weren't informed and they didn't get my police check so I couldn't even start if they could allow it. So call my jobsearch place and again they say they'll work it out that day. They call the next day and tell me to come in the next week because can't be worked out this week.
My head hurts just reliving it. Wasted so much time. Hopefully it is all worked out by Tuesday ...
I've done Work for the Dole before. Nice computer refurbish place. However the problem is during one of the change with the government they removed this initiative while I was working there so I stopped that. That was like 7 or 8 years ago. They only just recently brought it back end of last year. Problem with this is that because they just started it back up there is a lack of connections with companies so a lack of volunteer work. I tried to volunteer for it back when I started back on Newstart but they said they had to reserve those for people who are suppose to be on the initiative before they can let people volunteer for it. Okay so I had to wait till I needed to do it.
So in Jan I was suppose to start Work for the Dole. Problem was once again there was limited places. Fortunately they found me a place in Box Hill basically down my street. Sweet. Worked out the paperwork. Immediately the next day I receive a call telling me that connection has been cut and was in renegotiation so I had to choose the only other place which was in Southbank. Bleh fine. Wasn't very happy. However with the thing that happened with my brother happened at the time they told me I didn't need to come in at the time. Thing is after a week of not attending apparently it is automatically cancelled by the system. This I didn't find out until 3 weeks later ... Fine they scheduled me a meeting so I'll wait for that. However just a week later before the meeting I receive a call checking on how I was doing with Work for the Dole ... Okay I really don't get how their system works. The system cancels my Work for the Dole however my automated scheduled phone checkups stay up ... it's messed up. So tried to work it out. And now apparently there are 0 places for me to work so they put my studies as Work for the Dole activity ... aren't I basically on Austudy which is for students? Then again I'm getting paid more this way, guess I can't complain.
Unfortunately my studies don't go so well so I defer. Of course this means changing my Work for the Dole. They tell me there's a place in Balwyn, sweet. Problem, they expect more hours then someone my age is suppose to do ... then why did you even tell me. Hating. They place me in Collingwood for only 2 weeks because that's when their agreement is for. Okay fine, don't place me anywhere close and make me come in after 2 weeks to do this all over again. So I turn up in Collingwood and guess what? The place is close for the holiday break ... I call up my jobsearch place and find out they weren't informed. Of course. They tell me they will work it out. 2 weeks and they tell me just to come in to work out a new place.
That brings us to this week. Kew, not so bad. I turn up Tuesday. Apparently the Kew place didn't know I was coming in. They weren't informed and they didn't get my police check so I couldn't even start if they could allow it. So call my jobsearch place and again they say they'll work it out that day. They call the next day and tell me to come in the next week because can't be worked out this week.
My head hurts just reliving it. Wasted so much time. Hopefully it is all worked out by Tuesday ...
Saturday, 16 April 2016
I wanna, but I don't
I really want to post and I've got lot of random things I want to post about, but when I sit down to do it I don't. When it come down to it it is because I can't always get what I'm thing about down on paper ... or virtual paper ...
Just like how I usually try to explain things, I go in a really weird order that most people don't understand. It's the way I process things. However when I put it down and I read it then I can see there's better way to order it. So sometimes when I sit down I keep thinking about the best way to start of the post. However that most often requires me think of the entirety of what I want to post. When I can't I don't even start the post. Talk about procrastinating. Guess that's the same as how I do assessments ... One of the reasons why I'm practicing writing by blogging.
I'll try to get some more stuff up. Try being the operative word.
Just like how I usually try to explain things, I go in a really weird order that most people don't understand. It's the way I process things. However when I put it down and I read it then I can see there's better way to order it. So sometimes when I sit down I keep thinking about the best way to start of the post. However that most often requires me think of the entirety of what I want to post. When I can't I don't even start the post. Talk about procrastinating. Guess that's the same as how I do assessments ... One of the reasons why I'm practicing writing by blogging.
I'll try to get some more stuff up. Try being the operative word.
Tuesday, 22 March 2016
MIA
Okay a quick post. So I have been missing for around a week and there's a reason for that. With the drastic weather changes, because it's Melbourne, my sleep apnea has been acting up making it really difficult to sleep and so I'm so much worse off when I'm awake. Doesn't help it was the week I began my studies and I'm already terrible at studying without the tiredness. This result of sleep apnea was pretty much the thing that stuffed up my studies a few years back.
Still ... I can't believe the weather has been like this. It's basically the end of March and it was still pretty darn hot in my room. The other week it was like deathly cold. Yes for those who know me well I'm usually fine with the cold, but that's when it's consistently cold. Because I don't have many long sleeve clothing I've had to keep a blanket around just in case the sudden drop in temperature. It messes with the humidifier in my CPAP machine, which "suppresses" my sleep apnea, so it ends up blasting cold air into my throat causing me to wake with a dry throat causing lots and lots of coughing. So yes the weather is totally messing with my sleep. This is the kind of weather we get living in Melbourne ...
I just recently got a Mi Fit which is a cheapo version of Fitbit. Why I'm mention it is because it records when I am sleeping. Even though sometimes I barely remember if I woke or not the Mi Fit records what I've been doing. Apparently the recording is more on how much movement I am doing It records that sometimes I am awake during the night. Okay it's not cheapo enough that tapping it lightly count as steps. Pretty much means if its recording I'm awake it means I'm moving around a lot while I'm supposedly sleeping. And this is when it gets worse. I end up pulling out my CPAP mask off. This is the mask connected to the CPAP machine.
A bit brain dead still so post might not run really linear and also this post wasn't as short as I thought it be.
Still ... I can't believe the weather has been like this. It's basically the end of March and it was still pretty darn hot in my room. The other week it was like deathly cold. Yes for those who know me well I'm usually fine with the cold, but that's when it's consistently cold. Because I don't have many long sleeve clothing I've had to keep a blanket around just in case the sudden drop in temperature. It messes with the humidifier in my CPAP machine, which "suppresses" my sleep apnea, so it ends up blasting cold air into my throat causing me to wake with a dry throat causing lots and lots of coughing. So yes the weather is totally messing with my sleep. This is the kind of weather we get living in Melbourne ...
I just recently got a Mi Fit which is a cheapo version of Fitbit. Why I'm mention it is because it records when I am sleeping. Even though sometimes I barely remember if I woke or not the Mi Fit records what I've been doing. Apparently the recording is more on how much movement I am doing It records that sometimes I am awake during the night. Okay it's not cheapo enough that tapping it lightly count as steps. Pretty much means if its recording I'm awake it means I'm moving around a lot while I'm supposedly sleeping. And this is when it gets worse. I end up pulling out my CPAP mask off. This is the mask connected to the CPAP machine.
A bit brain dead still so post might not run really linear and also this post wasn't as short as I thought it be.
Friday, 4 March 2016
Difficulty Setting
Been playing B-Sieged which looks quite difficult/daunting with the hordes of enemies moving ever so close to siege the citadel. Lost the first two game miserably so didn't have much hope for the third. However with a bit of luck rolling we managed to beat the game.
That night we had Koinonia. Talked about the difficulties serving those we work with. The mentality of the work place is often to put yourself first. So to serve others in the workplace is pretty counter productive right? Well it really depends on the goal of why we do things. As Christians we are serving to show God's love.
The reason I put these two different subjects together is that they both talk about difficulties. Difficulty is a subjective idea because everyone has different strengths and weaknesses. Was just thinking of the things that I found difficult or not difficult. I mean looking at some games I play, some people wold say how hard it is and tell me how I make it look easy or such, even though to me it is neither hard or easy. Then there are things others do that I find extremely difficult/impossible but they seem to do it with such ease. Now breaking that down there are aspects of things we do that I find easy but others that I find hard. Like I don't find it hard working, doing menial tasks but I find it hard to get a job. So would it be said that I find work in general hard because I can't even get work?
I find interacting with children relatively easy to what others have said but I find it hard to study to be able to work in the business even though I have the skills. But this comes down to how the world works. You need a piece of paper to say what you can do, and you need the skills to be able to put that proof on paper. Reading and writing isn't my thing as you can probably find reading my blogging but these are required skills for general education. Practical skills are great but doesn't exactly transfer to paper to hand in to my teacher. I know there are Cert and Diploma level stuff that grade more on practical skills but to teach you need a Bachelor. Even the guy I talked to study a Diploma said it was a waste and that I should study Bachelor if I wanted to teach. Does that mean I should just give up on teaching?
Practical skills also don't transfer to job interviews. All they can see is what is written down and possibly what they hear from referees. I don't have any interview skills so that's mostly what they see. Apparently I didn't know what was appropriate to wear to interviews (no I didn't wear anything dodgy) and that I need to practice interview answers which shows the little I know about interviews ...
In the end it looks like I have the wrong skills to enter into what I want to. I think what I need to do is get some help. Some professional help ...
That night we had Koinonia. Talked about the difficulties serving those we work with. The mentality of the work place is often to put yourself first. So to serve others in the workplace is pretty counter productive right? Well it really depends on the goal of why we do things. As Christians we are serving to show God's love.
The reason I put these two different subjects together is that they both talk about difficulties. Difficulty is a subjective idea because everyone has different strengths and weaknesses. Was just thinking of the things that I found difficult or not difficult. I mean looking at some games I play, some people wold say how hard it is and tell me how I make it look easy or such, even though to me it is neither hard or easy. Then there are things others do that I find extremely difficult/impossible but they seem to do it with such ease. Now breaking that down there are aspects of things we do that I find easy but others that I find hard. Like I don't find it hard working, doing menial tasks but I find it hard to get a job. So would it be said that I find work in general hard because I can't even get work?
I find interacting with children relatively easy to what others have said but I find it hard to study to be able to work in the business even though I have the skills. But this comes down to how the world works. You need a piece of paper to say what you can do, and you need the skills to be able to put that proof on paper. Reading and writing isn't my thing as you can probably find reading my blogging but these are required skills for general education. Practical skills are great but doesn't exactly transfer to paper to hand in to my teacher. I know there are Cert and Diploma level stuff that grade more on practical skills but to teach you need a Bachelor. Even the guy I talked to study a Diploma said it was a waste and that I should study Bachelor if I wanted to teach. Does that mean I should just give up on teaching?
Practical skills also don't transfer to job interviews. All they can see is what is written down and possibly what they hear from referees. I don't have any interview skills so that's mostly what they see. Apparently I didn't know what was appropriate to wear to interviews (no I didn't wear anything dodgy) and that I need to practice interview answers which shows the little I know about interviews ...
In the end it looks like I have the wrong skills to enter into what I want to. I think what I need to do is get some help. Some professional help ...
Tuesday, 1 March 2016
The System
So I'm on Newstart. Getting money from the government paid by the taxes of working people. Not trying to rub it in. More like acknowledging and thanking the hard working people who have to pay taxes so the society we live in can continue to operate as well as can be. And I say as well as can be.
Work for the dole is back. I did working for the dole 7-8 years ago until they shut down the program as the government was moving funds around so pulled funding from there. Now that it's back they have to start from scratch setting up. In the past you could volunteer to work for the dole. I volunteered last time because it's something to do and you can get references for doing that. However because the system is just back there was not enough places because they were reserved for those who have been on Newstart for six months.
A month or so back I hit the mark when I needed to start working for the dole. Thing was when I went in to get my work for the dole drawn up, they dumped me into a group meeting. During the meeting, someone realized they put me in the wrong group and eventually I was in an one on one to plan out my work for the dole. They put me in an administration role in Box Hill basically right down my street. Sweet. What was not so sweet was the call the next morning telling me that they contract with the company got cancelled so I had to go back in to get a new place. The new place they put me as a outdoor laborer in Southbank which was not terrible. However when I was suppose to start that was when my brother's thing happened so they didn't expect me to go in. A fortnight after I was sent a letter stating that it was cancelled and they would get back to me about it. It wasn't until last week they called me, asking me how I was doing in my work for the dole. Huh? They didn't even know it was auto cancelled which I found out what had happened. So they booked me in again today. So once again in to plan my work for the dole. This time I had someone else setting it up. This time they tried to put me in retail assistant role somewhere near St Kilda. I say try because like 5 minutes later they told me there was no position there. After around 15 minutes they came up with no position for me. Instead they are using my study at Swinburne as my work for the dole. I guess this means I won't be using too much of my time working so I can study, but at the same time I'm not getting any more work experience which I'm having trouble with ... In the end a lot of time wasted. Hopefully they work it out in the next 3 months before I need to go back in to update my plan.
Work for the dole is back. I did working for the dole 7-8 years ago until they shut down the program as the government was moving funds around so pulled funding from there. Now that it's back they have to start from scratch setting up. In the past you could volunteer to work for the dole. I volunteered last time because it's something to do and you can get references for doing that. However because the system is just back there was not enough places because they were reserved for those who have been on Newstart for six months.
A month or so back I hit the mark when I needed to start working for the dole. Thing was when I went in to get my work for the dole drawn up, they dumped me into a group meeting. During the meeting, someone realized they put me in the wrong group and eventually I was in an one on one to plan out my work for the dole. They put me in an administration role in Box Hill basically right down my street. Sweet. What was not so sweet was the call the next morning telling me that they contract with the company got cancelled so I had to go back in to get a new place. The new place they put me as a outdoor laborer in Southbank which was not terrible. However when I was suppose to start that was when my brother's thing happened so they didn't expect me to go in. A fortnight after I was sent a letter stating that it was cancelled and they would get back to me about it. It wasn't until last week they called me, asking me how I was doing in my work for the dole. Huh? They didn't even know it was auto cancelled which I found out what had happened. So they booked me in again today. So once again in to plan my work for the dole. This time I had someone else setting it up. This time they tried to put me in retail assistant role somewhere near St Kilda. I say try because like 5 minutes later they told me there was no position there. After around 15 minutes they came up with no position for me. Instead they are using my study at Swinburne as my work for the dole. I guess this means I won't be using too much of my time working so I can study, but at the same time I'm not getting any more work experience which I'm having trouble with ... In the end a lot of time wasted. Hopefully they work it out in the next 3 months before I need to go back in to update my plan.
Ran-ting
It looks like I just decided I'm going to rant on this blog now. I did name this blog life is hard, sigh, so I don't see why I can't talk about the difficulties in my life. I've been thinking what a blog is suppose to include, or from the other side what is it not suppose to include. I guess it depends who reads the blog. I've kept it public but removed it from search (however someone in USA already found my blog before setting that up) so probably only the people I've shared the link to can read this. You can always not read my rants. I'll label my rants when I realize I'm ranting. If you want to read them then enjoy.
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